::dies::

First, for all those of you who are waiting patiently (or impatiently) for the next installment of Shadowscapes, you'll be waiting for a while longer. My computer is dead (and has been dead for about two weeks now), and Ryan and I are still trying to get it up and running again. If only ASUS would take tech calls without needing to fill out a form and wait interminably for a reply....

Not only does this mean I can't work on Shadowscapes (which, for now, will be on permanent hiatus until the end of the semester in April), it means I can't work on pressing projects for my school classes, because all my pertinent work is on my home computer (the dead one). This means I can't finish the graphics I need for my English 415R class, nor can I work on further cg projects to sell on eBay to make money so I can buy food and pay for costume stuff for AX.... I have to use my wonderful roommate's computer when she's not using it (which isn't all that often), or use the computer labs on campus (which get crowded very quickly, and only one lab has the programs I need for my English class and that lab is most often used for classes). So I'm stuck.

The stress is really getting to me. I'm flat broke right now. This computer problem is sucking my wallet dry, as well as killing my free time and work time, and I'm losing sleep from getting home so late from work (12:45 am) and having to get up for an early Jpanaese class (7:30 am). I'm also a panelist at LTUE tomorrow (Thursday), talking about anime, and it has me nervous to say the least. I need a better job. One that pays more and is earlier in the day. ::sigh::

I also need a punching bag or something. Something inanimate, but with enough firmness yet give that I can slug out my stress on it.

In brighter news, Jason and I had a great time on Saturday. ^_^

Now here's hoping I survive the week.

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 08:20 a.m.
on Wednesday, February 18, 2004

Hey folks! Guess what!

Oni's just a bit dead right now (that's my computer for those of you who don't bother to read previous installments of this blog). This means while I can still draw pages for Shadowscapes, I can't actually tone them and put together the HTML code. Unfortunately for you lovely folks this means there will be a delay in page updates until I can get Oni up and running again.

Due to the stress that this is causing, coupled with a current website project for my English 415R class, and various and sundry other things to do, I will not be attempting to give you guys extra pages to make up for this. I'm sorry. I will give you guys that bonus artwork I mentioned with the last page, as well as possibly one or two other pictures or goodies of some sort. Possibly. Maybe. We'll see.

Wish me luck getting Oni put back together, and hope sincerely that the processor is not fried.

In other news, I want to shove a flaming hot poker through my gut. Thank you, "that time of the month."

That is all.

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 08:32 p.m.
on Wednesday, January 28, 2004

...or not. This is taking far longer than it should, and I need to go to work soon. ::sigh:: It'll be up tomorrow, most certainly, as I get out of class at 11:00am and don't have work until 8:30. Please don't chew on me. ::flops over::

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 08:12 p.m.
on Monday, January 26, 2004

Ok, Shadowscapes fans, here's the scoop. I had the page drawn up on Thursday, right and pretty, and then got mucho-busy with classwork, custodial work, and general other stuff. The page is still drawn, but not scanned in yet. I have free time tomorrow. Guess what I'm going to be doing all day!

No, it's not the polka.

It'll be up tomorrow, I promise, along with two pictures I drew for you wonderful people to color. Send in your coloring jobs to be displayed on the fanart page! ^_^

I'm going to go hide in the corner now.

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 08:21 p.m.
on Sunday, January 25, 2004

Pirates of the Caribbean = Duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuude....

'Nuff said for now.

::drools over Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom::

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 04:33 a.m.
on Wednesday, July 16, 2003

I'm not getting any sleep tonight. ::sighs::

We leave in the morning for Anime Expo 2003 in Anaheim, CA, which means we're going to be up all night finishing costumes. We are going to be sooooo dead.

More info after the con. When I'm not busy dying.

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 01:47 a.m.
on Wednesday, July 2, 2003

After yesterday's (last night's?) entry, I felt inspired to ramble a bit in a thoughtful vein.

What is art? I don't mean the dictionary or encyclopedia definition of art, though according to my dictionary, a lot of modern "art" really isn't because it doesn't quite count as beautiful or aesthetic. But ideas change, right? What I mean is, what can be considered art? Is it just, by today's standards, grungy pieces of color or non-color slopped onto a surface in some vague semblance of a picture? Well, then, my cousins' finger-paintings are art. Scribblings on cardboard with marker and white-out are art. Throwing mud at a wall is art.

I don't think this is entirely the case. ::shrug:: Correct me if I'm wrong, but that can't be all art is, because then there's a lot of stuff in the world claiming to be art that isn't. Not really. The Mona Lisa and the Sistine Chapel ceiling and the Nightwatch and Falling Waters and all those other "artistic" pieces they make us study in Humanities really aren't art.

Hah. Note my derisive laughter.

Art is something created that appeals to the senses. It can be the sense of sight, the sense of sound, the sense of taste or touch or smell. It can be a sense of justice, a sense of the morbid, a sense of beauty and wonder, a sense of fear.... I could go on.

Yes, that smack-selling individual's Deviant Journal prompted this. Because "isellsmacktokids" seems to think that art isn't really art (or at least good art) unless it appeals to the sense of the morbid or disturbing. Unless it's grungy. Unless it doesn't show technical skill. Unless it doesn't show obvious meaning. Unless it gets shown in galleries. Unless it's the result of being told by three art critics that your previous work sucks like nothing else.

::drisive snort:: Right. Here's what art is, in my opinion.

Art is...

- A giant clothespin in the center of a city square.
- A child's fingerpaint smears across paper (and the floor, and the walls, and....)
- An intricately shaded doodle in the margins of your math notebook.
- A creation of bottlecaps, paperclips, soda can pull-tabs, and super glue.
- A popsicle stick cabin.
- Paint splashed on canvas.
- A highly-rendered model of an elf in a Renaissance dress.
- Crayon-colored fan characters of your favorite series.
- A thoughtfully-taken photograph of a sunset over water.
- Embroidery that took three months to finish.
- Handcrafted bead jewelry.
- Animation cels.
- A collage of tissue paper forming the vague shape of a chair.
- A portrait sketch of yourself in the mirror.
- Abstract representations of people in the style of Picasso.
- A series of comic book pages of your favorite original character.
- Morbid designs of blood and ink smeared across white-skinned faces.

I could go on, but I think you get the idea. And all of this can be good art too. It shows wonderful variety.

Just because your art was liked enough by a few critics with sway at a gallery to get it shown to the public there does not mean it's the definition of art. Deal.

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 10:14 p.m.
on Friday, June 20, 2003

DeviantJournal of isellsmacktokids

I feel the need to laugh at this person's journal entry. ::commences laughing::

I must first point out that this person is 18. That's not to say that an 18-year-old can't know anything about art, or be a great artist, but I highly doubt that makes the person an authority on art. Correct me if I'm wrong. Even if they've been told their earlier work is crap by professional artists, and even if they're currently in art shows. I know of some 15-year-olds who belong in art shows. That doesn't make them the authorities on art.

Now again, correct me if I'm wrong, but I believe that the best way to help someone improve is to offer constructive criticism, right? So does outright telling someone their work is "crap" or "junk" help them improve if you don't give them reasons why?

Didn't think so.

Of course, constant praise won't help someone improve. But then, dropping a simple, solid, "That's junk" in their lap won't either, without the reasons why. "That's junk because..." followed by constructive points works nicely. "That's junk" alone does not. That's called discouragement, which tends to kill improvement just as surely, if moreso, as constant praise. Believe me, I know.

So why this sudden topic in my blog? Visit the page I linked. It seems this "isellsmacktokids" person flamed boltstryke (an avid Sonic the Hedgehog fanartist, also 18 and apparently working as a commercial artist) for only posting Sonic fanart on his DeviantART gallery. Basically demanded to know if boltstryke could do any other art, and if so, why not.

They were rather flammatory about it.

Now, to quote two gems from their journal post in response to boltstrykes (justifiable) indignation at being flamed.

#1:

"now this is an ART site, and ART is not visual appeal, so far i havent seen ONE SINGLE THING that focused on something other than looking "cool" and "deep" and "creepy"

ART IS NOT AESTHETICS!!! ART IS NOT MEANT TO BE STUFFED WITH MEANING!!!"

I beg to differ. Yes, DeviantART is an art site. And a writings site. And an application skins site. And a desktop themes site. And...I could go on and on. It's a site for displaying results of creativity. But that's not the point in my disagreement. I disagree with their statement about art itself.

Art is quite often visual appeal. It's visual, and lots of artists create art to appeal to the senses, or to convey some meaning through a visual means. The products of art aren't always originally created with the intent of filling them with meaning, but they gain said meanings anyway through interpretation. And art can be aesthetic. It's one facet of art (art that isn't disturbing or morbid or ugly, per se). If it wasn't, then a lot of the classics wouldn't be art.

#2:

"and if you rely on people's criticisms and suggestions to change your work... you are not an artist, or an individual"

I quote this because it is amusing in that it contradicts an earlier statement by "isellsmacktokids." Earlier in her journal entry, she mentioned that people can't improve with constant praise, that they need criticism to improve too. But here she says that you're not an artist or individual if you use criticisms and suggestions to change your work. ::scratches head:: What a confusing person.

Constructive criticism is highly effective in improving art, because it lets the artist know what they're not getting quite right, if even only by others' opinions. If I didn't have constructive criticism (and lots of artists who were my role models), I'd still be drawing craptacular glorified stick figures.

And that's enough for now. I'm going to bed.

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 03:02 a.m.
on Friday, June 20, 2003

I've been waxing thoughtful lately.

I recently started work on a fanfiction based off of Sonic the Hedgehog, partly after sharing a dream I had years ago with a friend, and partly after finding some wonderful fanfiction by a girl who goes by the name of Orin. Really impressive stuff. You should go read it.

Anyway, she has an introduction on her profile page at Fanfiction.Net that, among other things, encourages people to keep writing, and to write for themselves, not for the reviews they can receive. I've heard this quoted, or heard similar sentiments, around the web, and I wholeheartedly agree.

Write for yourselves, people. Write because you want to, because it's fun, because you have a message or a thought or simply a story to share. And if you don't get reviews, don't stop writing, because it's for you, not for the readers. Yes, reviews are nice. Reviews are a wonderful boost to the day (or something to laugh at if it's flammatory). But reviews shouldn't rule the writing. If I stopped writing the first time I didn't receive reviews or praise for my work, I wouldn't be writing now. And that means people on Fanfiction.Net wouldn't be able to enjoy what is apparently (according to my reviewers and my roommate and my own personal opinion) an interesting fiction written by me. Because I would've been discouraged when only one person bothered to review my short Inuyasha fic (I now have three reviews on that one, thanks to a tiny bit of shameless plugging at M2A).

The reviews are simply there to tell me that yes, I do have an audience and they do like the story. I would still write the fic even without them because it's good training as a writer, and I've had memories of that dream bugging me for the past five years.

So write for yourselves.

And if you want to read my fanfiction (like anyone reads my blog anyway, aside from my roommate... ::shrug::), go Here.

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 04:27 p.m.
on Saturday, June 14, 2003

::grumbles:: Got my replacement Dreamcast. Same problem. EBGames is replacing it again, so I'm giving them another chance. We'll see if it's "third time's a charm" or "three strikes, you're out" for them. If it doesn't work, I'm getting a full refund and buying a Dreamcast on eBay.

But hey, I have Sonic Adventure and Record of Lodoss War RPG now. ^_^ If only they'd work in my Dreamcast.

And Megabuys is insanely slow. They still owe me a refund.

::cocks rifle with Comcast's name on it::

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 04:31 p.m.
on Tuesday, June 3, 2003

I know this is a bit late, but.... Happy birthday to me!

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 03:39 p.m.
on Friday, May 23, 2003

Thought of something to add today (besides the fact that Pam bought SA2:Battle, so we can still play it). This has some SA2 spoilers in it, so you're FOREWARNED.

Anyway. There's no way Shadow can be dead. We didn't see him burn up on re-entry. Trust me. I died enough times in Final Rush, and Pam died enough times in Final Chase, that we know what it looks like when a hedgehog enters the earth's atmosphere from space. Shadow didn't do that. Instead, he winked out in a blue light like the ARK reappearing above the earth in a stable orbit. And Shadow was still in his Super form at the time, which means he didn't need a Chaos Emerald with him to use Chaos Control. He had the power inside him already (being Super and all). So he had to have warped to a safe spot.

So there.

And two of my Dreamcast games I ordered on eBay came today. They're SA2 (for the Dreamcast) and Ecco the Dolphin: Defender of the Future. I didn't get to play them, though, because my Dreamcast won't recognize that there is actually a game disk in it. So I'm calling EBGames tomorrow to talk to Tech Support and see what we can do about it. From the brief call I had today (the system was down, so I didn't actually get to do anything about it), it sounds like they're just going to exchange it for a new (used) one. Here's hoping it works.

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 03:01 a.m.
on Sunday, May 18, 2003

Well, it was high time I updated the layout, wasn't it? I *was* working on a different one, themed around Inuyasha, but then Pam and Anki and I rented Sonic Adventure 2: Battle for Pam's Gamecube, and I got re-hooked on Sonic in general. So when Anki went and made herself a SA2:Battle layout (Shadow and Knuckles), I decided I had to make one too (only with Sonic, for balance). So here it is. Check out Anki's at Bardic Musings.

Lessee.... SA2:Battle is so cool! I need to get a Gamecube (because there are more Sonic games for the 'Cube, and there're also the Zelda stuffs and the Metroid stuffs and the Mario stuffs), once I can afford it. At least I'm getting Sonic Adventure and SA2 for my Dreamcast. The Chao are so cute! ::giggles:: And Super Sonic and Super Shadow power up like Saiyajin do. They're even white-yellow. And I need the soundtracks to the game. And more of Sonic X (the new anime).

I have a job! Yay for night custodial. It's fun enough, and allows me to pay rent and buy food (food is good).

Yay layout! ^_^

Kogarashi last summoned Shadow and Sonic at 02:59 a.m.
on Saturday, May 17, 2003

   
Current Layout: "Dark and Light" - featuring Shadow and Sonic of Sonic Adventure 2: Battle for the Gamecube.
Created: May 17, 2002, 2:51am MDT

Name: Kogarashi (Yasei Kaziya)
Age: 21 (as of May 21)
Job: Starving Student
Major: English
Sign: Taurus and Gemini (yes, both), Dog

   Current....
Anime: Sonic X, Inuyasha, Gensomaden Saiyuki, Spiral, Getbackers
Manga: Inuyasha, Gensomaden Saiyuki
Books: Winterlands series, Villains By Necessity, The Crown of Stars series
Songs: "Cry" by Faith Hill, "When You Lie Next to Me" by Kelly Coffey, "Helplessly Hopelessly" by Jessica Andrews, "The Highwayman" by Loreena McKennitt, "My Immortality" by Evanescence, SA2:Battle soundtrack
DDR Songs: "Look to the Sky", "Moonlight Shadow", "Neverending Story"
Pump It Up Songs: "Com'back", "Summer of Love", "Sad Salsa"
Find: Para Para version of "For Real"
Projects: CG projects, Shadowscapes Manga, cosplay, new website layouts for new home on www.mirrored-minds.net

   
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